Trigger.

My mum and auntie are taking me to Tesco in a bit and the urge to binge is surreal and I know that I'm gonna buy a heap of binge food. I don't want to binge but I really do. 


Keep having bad flashbacks which triggers off binges, I know this now. Flashbacks are gradually getting worse again and it's so fucking hard to deal with. I don't want to winge about the flashbacks or my past but I want it all to stop, I want to forget so badly. 


Gonna go now.