Sorry I haven't updated in like forever.
I've been in-patient at a psychiatric hospital for a little while and before then everything was all messed up. I just got out of hospital today and thinking I left a bit too early seen as I have already sat on my window ledge (top floor) and thought about jumping down...boom dead Nikki.
I'm feeling a bit better now cause I've taken some meds (a little more than I should have) and I'm meeting my boyfriend tonight and we're gonna have an amazing time although I have my god damn period which means no sex tonight, I have no idea how to break that gently to someone who has been wanting me for weeks. :P
I'm going home to Aberdeen after staying at my boyfriends for a few days cause I badly want to be home now and see my family.
Oh yeah, have I mentioned I have a new boyfriend? :P He is the sweetest guy you could meet, he visited me in hospital every single night which made me very happy and he brought chocolate to me every night also, most of which I haven't eaten but the binge monster has been lurking a little.
That's all I feel like writing about right now, I kinda have no energy and I want another fag, speaking of which I have been smoking a lot. And in this past 2 weeks I have smoked more pot than in the past year.
Ta ta for now.
