He's getting away with rape as I live in fear and trying to piece my life back together yet again. I'm acting like such a bitch to my auntie cause I just don't want to talk about what happened with her, it's too painful. I've decided to stay in my flat and in the same room that it happened cause I feel like I need to get on with it even though I'm terrified that he will come back.


The police told me that they don't have enough evidence to charge him and that apparantly my mental health problems makes me see and believe things that may not have happened which is absolute bullshit. No is no, sorry did I just imagine that or is ok to say no and him still continue to have sex with me, hit me and wrap his hands around my throat? Fuck this, I should never have went to the police I knew they wouldn't believe me cause I'm just the crazy girl that hurts herself.